Last weekend was a great one, spent time with brother Rasyidi & even met brother Faisal. It was a great moment to be able to sit down and share my experience and feelings with some people who are able to 'write' professionally. I used to love writing myself, for my own journals & record but never intend to write publicly. Only when brother Faisal suggested that I 'blog' and start segmenting on what I want to write especially with regards my life journey. Nevertheless, the contecnt in the draft on his next book is so touching and very good as it describes the exact issues i have when it comes to handling mualaf like myself by the other Muslims. Then I thought to myself that the idea is not bad at all. Then, will all the kelam kabut to look for a new place to stay,searched through the net, asking friends around, then tayar kereta pulak pancit kena tukar tayar baru (sebab dah lama sangat tak tukar tayar, dah merekah..)...well apart from that there are some minor events yang agak mencabar kesabaran diri Ain kali ini.
However, surprisingly.....as days goes by, eversince I keep on thinking about what brother Yusry & Pak Meow said about handling emotions and choosing on to be happy the other day, alhamdulillah, I am beginning to take things that come along my way slightly better. yes, i still do 'mengomel' sometimes, (used to 'mengomel' a lot) but atleast not in a sense of marah or tertekan but mengomel as in ...'well...apa boleh buat!mesti ada hikmahnya,insyallah adalah tu nanti...' for example.
About two days ago the tragedy of a lanslide which took 16lives of brothers and sisters in rumah anak yatim in Hulu Langat, made me realized that ALLAH has HIS own reasons for planning ang letting things happen as HE knows whats best for us. Often we,including myself often forget that some things may happen in the ways that we are not so fond of, yet thats whats best for us. And as human, especially like those who are like myself, tend to be rebelious at times, whine and break down, however we are human after all. Anyways, there's nothing wrong in going through all that.BUT it has to stop at certain stage eventually. Remember what a brother used to tell me during my depression period about more than a couple of years ago...' IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO STOP..'
Rather that saying 'IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO START ANEW..' the old things happening within ourselves have to STOP first.stop the sorrow and grief,wrap it nicely and throw it away. Stop thinking about the past, cherich the present and dont bother worrying about the uncertain future. .... things will be fine as it is not as bad as it seems, if we remember to remind ourselves that there are others who are in worse circumstances compared to ourselves....perhaps only then we will remember to be grateful..insya Allah, we'll be a better person.
However, surprisingly.....as days goes by, eversince I keep on thinking about what brother Yusry & Pak Meow said about handling emotions and choosing on to be happy the other day, alhamdulillah, I am beginning to take things that come along my way slightly better. yes, i still do 'mengomel' sometimes, (used to 'mengomel' a lot) but atleast not in a sense of marah or tertekan but mengomel as in ...'well...apa boleh buat!mesti ada hikmahnya,insyallah adalah tu nanti...' for example.
About two days ago the tragedy of a lanslide which took 16lives of brothers and sisters in rumah anak yatim in Hulu Langat, made me realized that ALLAH has HIS own reasons for planning ang letting things happen as HE knows whats best for us. Often we,including myself often forget that some things may happen in the ways that we are not so fond of, yet thats whats best for us. And as human, especially like those who are like myself, tend to be rebelious at times, whine and break down, however we are human after all. Anyways, there's nothing wrong in going through all that.BUT it has to stop at certain stage eventually. Remember what a brother used to tell me during my depression period about more than a couple of years ago...' IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO STOP..'
Rather that saying 'IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO START ANEW..' the old things happening within ourselves have to STOP first.stop the sorrow and grief,wrap it nicely and throw it away. Stop thinking about the past, cherich the present and dont bother worrying about the uncertain future. .... things will be fine as it is not as bad as it seems, if we remember to remind ourselves that there are others who are in worse circumstances compared to ourselves....perhaps only then we will remember to be grateful..insya Allah, we'll be a better person.
